in an ugh mood today . hungry . slightly annoyed . watched a movie earlier . about to head out in a few but hw cram tonight . my life as jeNelly bean . =]
Later Lovers .
p.s praying for those affected by this years freak quakes [ Haiti and Chile ] . I can't imagine the pain you're feeling right now but know that the best person for the job is working on it... wink and smile for God =]
2:00 AM problem major . bad jenelle . setting myself up for failure . I love Mr. Love Guy . Babyface- What if . CRAP .
3:19 AM J. L. E. D. dilemma . Mr. Love guy has fallen asleep on the phone... and I'm still wide awake . about to make an attempt at sleep again . wish me luck .
First Haiti...and now this . I'm scared... A massive earthquake with an initial magnitude of 8.8 has struck central Chile . the US orginally issued a tsunami warning for Chile, Peru and Ecuador but it has now been extended to include Colombia, Antarctica, Panama, Costa Rica and our own...Hawaii .
“Urgent action should be taken to protect lives and property,” the Pacific Tsunami Warning center said in a bulletin . “All shores are at risk no matter which direction they face .”
“Everybody is under a warning because the wave, we know, is on its way. Everybody is at risk now,” said Geophysicist Victor Sardina in a telephone interview with the New York Post
ATTN AUC: Walk begins PROMPTLY at 12 PM . To register, hit King's Chapel starting around 11:30 AM . Dodge ball tournament immediately follows !
for my Lovers:"Autism is a complex developmental disability that typically appears during the first three years of life and affects a person’s ability to communicate and interact with others. Autism is defined by a certain set of behaviors and is a "spectrum disorder" that affects individuals differently and to varying degrees. There is no known single cause for autism, but increased awareness and funding can help families today.
For more information regarding Autism, please visit: http://www.autism-society.org Totally rocking my puzzle ribbon for those families affected by Autism on April 2, 2010 [ World Autism Awareness Day ] .
trying to help my big brother with his homework [ both in college ] . I don't remember any of this calculus stuff which is pretty bad seeing that I was a T.A in high school . I guess everything just went blank after I passed both parts during my freshman year of college . really wish I had kept my notes now .
[ Happy Birthday Chelsie a.k.a my baby cousin Boogie ]
YES! subway sandwich . ham, jalapenos, mayo, mustard, lettuce, onion, salt y pepper, and light oil ! Today's lunch .
officially back together...AGAIN <3 .on some: Keyshia Cole- This is us type ish .
missing my other half . working on parts of his power point while he works on his speech . thinking about babies, surprisingly doesn't scare him ...which should scare me lol . we would make cute little rugrats [ Black, White, and Puerto Rican ] little mocha frappachinos ...but no time soon [ TRUST ME ] .
12:41 AM YOU ARE THE FIRST TO KNOW: I'm working on my "atypical.Jenelle" line under the Love Jenelle brand and it is AWESOME if I do say so myself!!
key point to remember: - not typical: not conforming to the usual type or expected pattern . I'm fired up..ready to show !
well not now . currently UBERcaked up with him via crackberry . [ HUGE grin ] sketch book on chest . added OUR SONG to the play list: Miguel- Let's just be .-->
Nighty Night Lovers,
p.s Totally craving another Subway sandwich =/ ...aha tomorrow!
I hate strongly disliked him this morning but he's trying to make it up to me [ doing a good job btw ] . Sucks that I'm gonna be mad all over again when he gets off the phone . he's going out tonight and I'm sitting here in an over sized white v-neck with the covers pulled over my head . [ hmmmm...guess I can work on this flyer for wally ]
7:40 PM my 'pretty pink unicorn' [ inside joke ] hit me up today on fb . happy he's doing well...ARMY bound in the fall .
ponder . pause .
maybe I'm not being fair to him [ Mr. Love Guy ]...He really is a great person and I tend to overreact when I'm stressed . So does he...We'll talk about it tonight when he gets back in . I'm sure I have another sleepless night ahead of me .
8:46 PM I HATE when people call me out my bed for dumb crap . it pisses me off . I have a cell phone for a reason . if you have a question, text it ! its the American way ! ugh !!
finished the flyer: Kinda cute . =] <- first smile of the day .9:29 PM in a bad mood and if I kick his ass now [ brother ]...i'll be bored later . >=/ not the day to be on my bad side .
lack of sleep + ignorance = a very annoyed and highly pissed off Jenelle .
about to watch the fast and the furious . big guns make me smile but fast cars make me smile harder .
11:10 PM starting to miss ATL...and him
12:41 AM he's home earlier than I expected . missed him tremendously...couldn't stay mad to save my life . he makes my heart smile . getting off my blog to get on him [ crackberry wise of course ] .
def. almost got hit by a semi today . not exactly the best start to my afternoon but life goes on .
-designed a new flyer for my Kappa friends at UNF . They already had one but I was MADDDDD bored...so I made a new one =] .
Left:Their current flyer / Right: My edit
-talked to bobster about spring break . apparently were breaking on different weeks so I'm missing a few classes to be with my girls [ sucks but what can you do...skip the trip..uh NO ] .
-movie with a friend last night D.mas .
-bad ass shoes: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/shop?category_id=41 [ thanks key . ]
http://www.alexandermcqueen.com/ is open for biz again . in light of the tragic death of this awesome designer...a tribute video has been placed on the homepage . [ fav..chess board models ! who thinks of that?! man I'm going to miss him ]
MY SIS/ FELLOW GOOD GIRL ERIKA HAS A FEATURE SPOT ...is anyone really surprised here ? [I'm not ] I'm so proud right now . cheesing in my soul lol . CHECK THIS OUT!! http://dontloseyourdayjob.com/2010/02/23/virginia-slims-no-one-on-the-corner-got-swagger-like-erika-ervin/ follow her: http://www.twitter.com/sueshiroll
7:24 PM went to wally world . talked to cami cakes [ missed him ] . watching GI JOE with my family [ Jas, Kahlia, Jaylen, and Aunt T ] .
10:59 PM thinking about Mr. Love Guy...the longer were apart... the easier it gets . it's difficult to let someone you love go... [ watch were gonna be right back together again ]
I really need something to fill my ideal time . hmmmm options:
A: volunteer at my old elementary school [ I'm sure they need a little help ] .
B: work on my fashion portfolio/ create a few samples [ doesn't sound as appealing as my first option ] .
C: find a dance studio and give ballet another shot [ I was really good at one point...out of shape now lol ] .
p.s My old dance director wants us to do an encore performance of the show we did a few weeks ago at the church...but I don't really feel like being lifted right now even if it is for Bishop . I need to get back in shape before I can do another piece like that one...I was sore for days after . =/
D: find a gym and workout for spring break [ rolls are good in a basket...not bikinis ] .
I think option A is looking really good right now along with a little D action at the gym . No point in resting on my bottom...headed up to the school to fill out my volunteer paperwork .
Later Lovers .
p.s.s I am going to miss doing a "Shoe Box Christmas" this fall . Had so much fun last year with my Mo-bros and the kids from the Jump start program . Maybe I should do the project down here at UNF . hmmmm .
After hours of homework, I have finally finished HALF of the mountain [ 10:46 AM ] . Just enough to walk into my class without that "I hope she doesn't collect anything" face .
TIRED does not begin to describe it but I'm up watching Sex And The City anyway lol . I really should get my truck serviced today...I'm way over due for that oil change and my gas has been going extremely quick . hmmmm I should wash and vacuum "Tootsie" also .
OK rolling out of bed to take a shower . TTYL Later Lovers .
2:11 PM so mad I'm crying . skipping class . going to the beach . I'll explain later .
9:44 PM Love isn't enough anymore . It can't be "we're together but we're not" .
10:50 PM watching GI JOE . big guns make me smile =]
Trust[ing]: belief that someone is honest/sincere with no intention of deliberately harming you . Friendship: a relationship between two or more people in which they help and support each other . The lesson here [ as I am learning through my advancement in years -' no stranger to backstabbers' ], anyone can call themselves a friend but not everyone deserves the privilege . I know it can be difficult discerning between a friend or foe [ even Jesus had Judas ] but think of it this way .
If you needed to confide in someone, who amongst your friends would most likely keep the conversation private ?
If you were to take ill today... who would care for you ?
If you were in dire need of something this very moment, who would sacrifice their last dollar to help you ?
If you're coming up with blanks, either you need to re-evaluate the company you keep or...look at yourself . Part of a friendship is being a friend [ sounds redundant but it must be said ] . It's an even exchange of care that should come second nature . If you wouldn't do any of this for your 'friends', what makes you think you deserve it in return ?
Just wanted to plant a seed with you guys...the people from your past that are really "for" you will always move forward WITH you . =]
7:51 PM went shopping with Jas [ again lol ] and now it's time for homework . Mr. Love Guy and I have tons to knock out so were gonna help each other through the load .
10:38 PM This textbook is just not holding my attention . uugggggghhhhh . ok self . you need this class for your degree . push through it and get off fb . [ guess 'sex and the city' isn't exactly helping either =/ ] I feel an all-nighter coming on . Nighty Night Lovers .
slept in late, went car shopping with Jas, and had plenty of alone time . I'm not sure how to describe what I'm feeling right now other than...uugggghh . Placed the crack berry [ blackberry ] on silent . currently watching it light up [ 6 missed calls, 2 voice mails, and 2 text messages...I'll check them tomorrow ] . Not in a social mood [ well I tried to talk to Mr. Love Guy but that didn't go too well =/ ] . Pondering cancelling my plans for tomorrow . I might just grab some ice cream and watch an old movie . ssssssssssiiiiiigggghhhhhhh going to bed...alone . sucks major corn flakes no sugar . =[ Later Lovers .
11:36 PM Mr. Love Guy just called, apologized, and now he's back on that [ excuse me ] damn video game . NBA2K10 is the epitome of his existence . annoyed . I'm going to bed .
Kardashians design a line for BEBE ? Tis true folks . Khloe, Kourtney and Kim Kardashian who are vastly known for their impeccable fashion sense [ and controversial relationships ], have designed a new fashion line for the infamous BEBE which debuted at New York Fashion Week ! According to Kim, the sisters will be collaborating with Bebe for five seasons . “We each have our signature pieces . Khloe has her collection, Kourtney has hers and I have mine. It’s so exciting .”
Here's a peek guys:
[ To view entire collection: http://www.flickr.com/photos/43585285@N05/ ]
Honestly looks a little asos.com if you ask me but to each it's own . I'm very excited for the sisters but I have sincere hopes that their lines get better with time .
p.s Hitting a Payless near you... Christian Siriano, Alice + Olivia, and Lela Rose .
[ Check out Payless.com for full selection ]
6:00 PM in the midst of my supreme boredom, I created a masterpiece [ may be over selling this a tad lol ] ! I think it's kinda cute =/ about to head over to Jas' place and then were off to the magical world of WENDYS, [ yay . I am sooooo hungry ] then car shopping followed by a movie at Bobbie's house .
Maria has officially been added to the Spring break plans . muy excited kiddos . Its been a LONG time since we had all the girls together =/ [instant recap: Ashley J.H, Ashley J.W, Elisabeth, Maria, Jasmin, Bobbie, y Shannon ]
mini-fight with Mr. Love Guy but relationship still intact .
running short of things to say today..maybe something major will happen between now and later tonight so I can share my 'ultimately boring life' with you guys . ;D
Later Lovers .
p.s still completely captivated by an article located in the EBONY June 2009 issue [ old right ] on Jada Pinkett-Smith . I hope to achieve her level of success one day as a mother and business woman. she's flipping awesome .
7:23 PM Lisa Raye: Cover girl for the Centennial issue of Today's Black Woman magazine
actress, spokes model, mother, business woman, First lady and now cover girl . congrats sweetheart [ nice dress btw ] ! be on the lookout for her new reality show [ doesn't everyone have one now ?? ], more details on the way .
Good morning lovers . isn't it a beautiful day =] If you can't tell, I'm in a great mood [ not letting this cold get me down ] . sooooo, first things first [ obviously lol ] updates:
-getting good feedback about this week's fashion spotlight; in fact it might be submitted for major publication . trying not to get my hopes up but I'm kinda excited kiddos .
-Mom bought me some new Coach tennis shoes . really cute..extremely grateful . Going to pick up my boots later today .
-Mr. Love Guy made my morning with the sweetest text . my own little superman [cheesy hero music] . His text basically said he can't wait to move down here [ after he graduates this May ] and be with me...yadda yadda yadda . The mushy stuff that always makes me grin ;D
-Hitting the movies tonight with BJ [ he's like my little brother ] to see who knows what .
-Going to see my daddy...FINALLY have enough gas money to make it all the way over there lol .
I think that's it kiddos =] I need to get dressed so I'll update you later ;D oooo wait, secondly...please pray for my wifey Oreo . She's having a few medical issues and I'm worried . =/ appreciate it in advance .
Later Lovers .
p.s someone wrote and asked why I end most of my messages with "Later Lovers"? I'm a HUGE Sex and The City fan and there was a part in the movie that Carrie said "Hello Lover" lol and it just kinda stuck ;D
11:28 PM saw daddy today =] he's walking . saw mom, new boots are awesome [ blk Steve Maddens ] . grabbed a plate at bobbie's y cancelled my movie plans with BJ . just wanted to come home and talk to Mr. Love Guy . totally missed him all day . my body is super tired kids . I think this cold is starting to wear on me . uugghh . colds suck apple juice; no bindy straw . [frowns ] I might just call it a night guys ;]
until tomorrow, Later Lovers .
p.s I really wish I could cuddle up beneath Mr. Love Guy...I'm cold ='[
The Wolfman is a terrible remake of the popular horror classic that was produced by Universal over 60 years ago . Instead of capitalizing on a more modern take of the character the studio decided to stick with the same old plot and feel of the original 1940's classic rendering it extremely boring . Same overseas location [ London ] and time period, accompanied by plenty of blood and gore . Now I'm not at all a girlie girl when it comes to horror or action movies...but there are some extremely graphic scenes that didn't need to be shown [ i.e exposed intestines and plenty of heads flying off ] . This film could have been an AWESOME revamp of its predecessor but the excessive unnecessary gore ruins the whole picture . The cast was flipping excellent but it didn't seem like their combined talents shined through . It takes a good director to bring out the best in their actors and that just didn't happen here AT ALL . Joe Johnston had TWO Oscar winners and a Golden Globe nominee yet they all gave, excuse me...half assed performances . It makes you wonder what the h*** was the director doing the whole time .
over all, I was completely underwhelmed . no stars .
YO! my head hurts like the dickens!! I'm sneezing . my nose is running like a three year olds . I think it's safe to say I'm sick . tater sauce . I have class at 2 and everything is spinning..what the crap kids ?!
working on a new movie review for you guys [ The Wolf Man ] reconnected with an old high school friend..Eddy the Asian [ had a MAJOR crush on him back then lol ] .
currently laying in the bed in my Morehouse shirt =]/=[ miss my guys/divas .
phone call..some whore bought my shades..tears getting off the computer to go throw up [ sorry..was that tmi? ] Later Lovers [ she sneezes loudly and frowns ] <3 .3:22 PM in class . world still spinning . geessssh . totally rethinking that shoot for this weekend . I might just be in bed with the covers pulled over my head . uuuggggggghhhhhhhhhhh . any who . starting to get this stuff...even though I still don't have a book [ teach is giving me one for the FREE ! God bless this woman...$242 is too much for a book . ] might hit bobbie's house after I drop Jas at her house . sure hope they have food [ threw up my breakfast ] . going to see my daddy today . I hope he gets out of the nursing home soon . missing the old guy =/ ok..I should prob pay attention ;D MWAAHHH . ttyl
10:56 PM awwwww my Divas made me cry [ wanted to share ] ! for those unfamiliar with the term Diva, it is given to those lucky young women that emerge from the beautiful Bumstead Hall of Clark Atlanta University . The best of the best on Campus both academically and socially . The Bumstead sisterhood will forever be my first sorority .
you whores lol [ j/k ]. It's nice to know that even though I left CAU, I'll always carry my sisters with me . -Until homecoming ladies ;D
I'm in love! No not with a guy, I am in love with a new clothing movement ! It's rare that I feature just one person in the spotlight but creative master mind Kyler Gordon has unearthed something masterfully major to the tenth chicken nugget [ with the sauce ] . What was once a claim to independence, UppityNegro™ has taken on an identity of it's own. I had an opportunity to converse with Gordon recently in a brief interview and was very impressed by the charisma and passion embodied in this young Morehouse man .
Bean burritos my friend . first off, what do you think of lovejenelle.blogspot ?
I checked you out...pretty dope. your music selection is l o v e.
Thanks! so, where did you come up with the concept/name UppityNegro™ ?
Well, the concept for UppityNegro™ is as old as I can remember. [or at least as long as I've had a face.space; i.e. my URL for both]
Can you remember when UppityNegro™ first appeared ?
In middle/high school, I have always referred to myself and others in my company as UppityNegro™... the concept behind it wasn't so deep at the time though. It was just my signature thing but since coming to Morehouse College, I wanted to make a couple of items for myself to wear [so I can have on what everyone else doesn't] but it wasn't until people started asking "wear did you get that" and "wear can I buy it" did I realize that this could ((l o w k e y)) be a movement within itself.
You mentioned the word movement, what do you mean by that?
My idea behind it now is nothing less than empowerment and self affirmation of our black culture. It's too often I see our people in the news for negative reasons. [fighting, robbing, shooting, drugs, etc.] so my thoughts on the elitism I put into UppityNegro™ is if a person can consciously wear the brand and call themselves an UppityNegro™ then they will be above the things that are destroying us as a people. Hopefully, through fashion... I can change the world.
Well said, but I can only imagine the backlash that will come with that.
Now I anticipated many naysayers on the concept of it all... but there is indeed a method to my madness. You will find that on EVERY garment I make, UppityNegro™ will always be in old typewriter font and in all caps because back in the day, when Negroes were mentioned in the media, the word "negro" was always lower cased. Many people fought so hard to get that "N" upper cased in newspapers and magazines that I made the entire brand in all caps. and the logo is a chicken looking up to put a comical spin on the just one of the negative connotations and stereotypes placed on our culture. just for kicks.
lol I like that. Where do you see UppityNegro™ in 10 years ?
In 10 years... I would hope that the right somebody sees my work and picks me up. UppityNegro™ will be sold in high-end retail [for purpose of revenue] while still staying true to my basis of community service. Bringing UppityNegro™ Summer Camp to the "hood", The National UppityNegro™ HBCU tour for juniors in high school and also... an UppityNegro™ College Fund. Essentially, I want the brand to be a positive household name within every black family in the world by then. [anyone else is a bonus] but that is a ways into the future.
You are known to make awesome shirts/hoodies but what else can you see for your brand? bags ? shoes ?
With time comes progression... and with my very limited start up budget given to me by my moms . ♥ . hoodies+tees are just the here and now for UppityNegro™. I stay very true to UN's motto "...never stationary" and stationary is what I strive to never be. so with more I have to work with... more gets produced.
For those AUC'ers out there in desperate pursuit of UppityNegro™, it will be on sale at the next available market Friday at Spelman College . [ Those outside the ATL area, shoot me an email [ email@example.com ] and I'll forward you along ] .
pickys =] yesterday's recap [ wow..i'm slipping ] . went daycare shopping for jaylen and found the perfect one . wally world for the basics . dinner with the besties at applebees . shopping with Jas in Ponte Vedra [ going back for those Armani shades..they were H.O.T ]. and back home to talk to Mr. Love Guy . =]
I spoke to Chris H. briefly . He's trying to talk me into visiting him in NC before he goes back to NBA training...[ still thinking about flying to New Orleans to see Corde ] but I'd feel hella guilty . Mr. Love Guy and I aren't together but neither one of us are trying to see other people . As long as the love is still there...I won't be going anywhere .
Going to price check that book so I can do my homework . gosh I'm sleepy . ttyl I guess =/ Later Lovers .
awesome sauce . yesterday's recap . photo shoot went bananas [ frozen model with a side of nerves ] . shopping with the besties . movie with the family . happy times =] .
12:56 AM IT'S VDAY!! I'M SOOOO HAPPY..well kinda . as happy as a single girl can be on this horrible day lol . p.s Agyness Deyn [ Model ] totally busted her butt while ripping the runway during Naomi Campbell's Fashion For Haiti Relief [ New York fashion week ] .
good job keeping the smile though! =D
11:11 AM Horrible dream last night . I keep having recurring nightmares about Mr. Love Guy . So not the awesome sauce but I can only imagine it was about the fight we had last night . I snapped about something stupid [ yes, admitting I was wrong ] . Having trust issues is like throwing a stick of dynamite on top of a long distance bonfire . just not a good idea . Our roles have completely switched as of late...I'm the crazy, bi-polar, mean one and he just takes it . I don't like making him sad but he makes me so upset sometimes . I need to learn to communicate effectively or I'm going to loose one of the most important men in my life . ='[
receiving "Happy VDAY" texts messages and though I'm tempted to just ignore them, I'm responding to each one . My whole enthusiasm for today has flown out the window . I just want a bowl of ice cream and my "Sex and The City" DVD . catching a movie with bobster tonight . Wolf man [ who needs chick flicks ] ! long siiiiiiiiggggggggggggghhhhhhhh . going back to sleep with the covers pulled over my head . yes indeed . today sucks apple jacks . roasted apple jacks .
9:00 PM At Bobster's house missing Mr. Love guy a lot . I feel kinda bad that I'm still going out and he cancelled his plans to spend time with me [ I didn't know until after I was heading out the door ] . uggghhh I'm starting to suck at this wife job . any who...I got a few Valentines . cute I guess..if you like teddy bears [ never really got the point . they sit there and collect dust or you give them away to the salvation army a year later ].
were about to grab a bite and hit the movies . Later Lovers .
shocking news of British designer Alexander McQueen's suicide cast a funereal pall over Fashion Week . His loss marked by tears , disbelief , and a moment of silence . As reported by British newspapers, McQueen [ whose A-list clients included Lady Gaga and First Lady Michelle Obama ] was found hanging inside his $1 million central London flat on the eve of his mother's funeral . Joyce McQueen died Feb. 2, leaving behind a family in devastation . his depression over her death lead to his final remarks via Twitter on Sunday afternoon .
"Been a f****** awful week but my friends have been great but now i have to some how pull myself together,"...Four days later he was gone .
"In such a short career, Alexander McQueen's influence was astonishing - from street style , to music culture and the world's museums," Vogue editor Anna Wintour said in a statement . " His passing marks an insurmountable loss . "
As a fashion major...I hold a great admiration for his earth shattering work and morn his passing . My prayers go out to his family and friends .
10:56 AM Good morning lovers ! Isn't it a beautiful day [excluding the rain and freezing temperatures ] . The birds are singing [ somewhere not here ] and sun is shinning [ in California ] ! I feel such love in my heart today =] Couldn't stop smiling to save my life . soooo today's events:
-Pick up Bobbie from the station -Price check my Econ book [ homework out the wazoo ] -Grab dad's credit card to pay for my book -Get my hair re-done [ don't like it =/ ] -Eyebrows/ manicure's with the besties -Pack model bag for tomorrows shoot [ * pack umbrella..may rain ] -wait for the other half of my baby's VDAY gift...
yes there's a part two . Apparently it's something for my truck that I asked for when I first got it but then again I asked for a lot including a new truck [ I saw a black Mercedes truck soon after =/ I was devastated lol ] . hmmmm I wonder did he get my name in chrome?? any who I need to get up and get moving . There are books to be bought and read [ after all smart is the new cool ] .
Later Lovers .
p.s shouts to my niece Jazzlin! we made the best Valentines her class will ever see last night!! monumental family triumphs start young [ lol ] .
p.s.s John Mayer is NOT a racist . He was simply stating his sexual preference . There's nothing wrong with only wanting to have relations with a certain race, but THERE IS a fine line between being flat-out offensive and simply saying what you need to say. I honestly don't think he meant anything by his comment. The singer was trying to be "raw" and uncensored, and instead of coming across as an artist simply telling it like it is, he made an ass of himself . [ & so what about the N word . blk people use the word all the time but when a white guy says it "O Hell naw!" stfu . want the word to stop being used ? STOP GLORYFIYING IT . ]
11:36 PM Soon to sell out at a Target near you , Zac Posen has been revealed as the next designer for Target’s GO International line . It won’t be hitting stores until April 25th , but the lookbook is available online now for your viewing pleasure . The collection is fun , yet classic and fresh , yet sophisticated , in typical Zac Posen style and perhaps the best line since Proenza Schouler’s back in 2007 .
Flavor Flav- I'll Never Let You Go this foolishness . I'm so embarrassed for him =/ look it up . I refuse to post it .
10:53 PM HAVE I TOLD YOU HOW MUCH I LOOOOVVVVVEEE THAT MAN ?! my baby has surpassed all expectations ! When I got home this evening from my brother's house [ went to see dad ], I found a UPS box on the chair closest to my bedroom door inside my room . I grabbed [ shook it ] and reached for a pair of scissors as I sat next to my mom on the living room couch . Just as I was about to open the package, Mr. Love Guy called . I asked him if he knew anything about the box and he nonchalantly replied no . so I opened it anyway and there in a little Burgundy velvet bag was... a beautiful heart necklace...covered in diamonds [ similar to the one I picked out last Valentines day...I thought he had forgotten ]. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!! "Happy Valentines day baby, I love you" [-Love guy/ex boyfriend/ love of my life person ] ... Not as much as I love him . I can not express how happy I am right now...and how much I miss being with him . I wish I was there with him right now... in his arms..the perfect Kodak moment .
car accident on the Matthews . traffic for hours . made it to class on time by the grace! =] but....this class is going to kick my butt yo ! I can't miss ANY days at all or I will be royally f****d!
photo shoot jitters . I grabbed the trench today and a pair of $4oo Oscar De la Renta sunglasses
[ what..they were on sale..who passes on Oscar De la Renta ?! ] I will be studying tonight after I get my hair done..all sports illustrated and Vogue poses . Thinking I will be freezing at the beach this Saturday lol [ wait..that's not funny ] ='[ .
missing Mr. Love Guy .
k, gotta run . later lovers .
1:36 AM finally falling asleep with the love of my life =] [ forever sounds great ]
yesssss! I found a 2:00 class . I just need to get an override and I'm awesome sauce . =] P.S.A...keeping a nerd out of class is CRUEL ! I love school [ lol ], always have . I use to collect those little A honor certificates from my high school [ it was like a game with my girls...who had the most at the end of the year lol ] and then I discovered boys around 11th grade...disaster . I can't wait to start writing papers, doing homework, and slipping fashion magazines into my macroeconomics books in class . ;D
btw found a blk bikini for my beach shoot and a white mens shirt . still searching for the perfect trench and hair stylist [ city disappoints me...sure wish Tokyo was here =/ ] . I also found a beautiful rosary necklace and I'm going to pair that with my pewter earrings . should be hot [ Bobbie approved kids ]. [ self note: pick up dermablend for tats ]
Last night: Prince of Egypt at 4:00 AM...couldn't sleep . I missed him too much .
VDAY: I'm expecting a package from my ex/Mr. Love Guy [ he said it's not flowers, candy, or balloons...soooo I'm out of guesses ], flowers and a card from Corde, a package from D-mas, and Jersey wants to grab dinner . I feel so loved guys...my guy friends do it big for girls they trust . I'm sending everybody a cute card with a personalized message on the inside and maybe a shoot pic if I have them back in time . hmmmmm but for Mr. Love Guy... I actually bought this really nice red watch [ his fav color ] . Hope he doesn't have it already . it's impossible to buy for a guy who has everything...can be very frustrating .
2:27 AM God please help me fix this if it's within your plan.. you put us in each other's lives for a reason...pls don't tell me it was just to experience my first broken heart ='[
love this song:
11:30 AM OK kiddos . getting up to go see my dad . good news..my transcripts have ALL been posted..3 classes from completing my first degree then I'm off [ sorry jax, don't worry I'll only be a hour away ] . Hella [ lol ] sleepy .
- find someone who can really do hair [ I have never been happy with someone Else's style but I can't braid my own hair down sooo..I'm stuck ] - get enrolled in the other two classes I need . - call corde, make sure he's OK . sounds like he's sinking into depression [ not a fun place...look what its called gesssh . ] - make my final arrangements for Vday [ shhhh..it's a secret ;D I'll tell you after ] - NAP!!!!
I love you colorful and not so colorful people, later lovers ;D
p.s random thought, where the crap is Gossip Girl?!
3:01 PM at the nursing home [ who knew they had wifi ?? ] watching my dad get a haircut . He's the only guy I know who's barber comes to him where ever he goes lol . His friend Harold is here and we're all talking about college life and my plans for the future . Great to have someone who understands the route I'm taking . I left the four year university to save time and money . I knew I wouldn't be graduating from Clark Atlanta and at $30,000 per semester, it doesn't make much sense to stay [ especially when my dad is in and out of the hospital...I need to be closer to home...just in case ] . My new school [ FSCJ ] will give me an assoicates degree [ Transfer degree: when I transfer again...I can't loose any credits . I automatically start as a junior in the fall ] after I complete this semester .
wow so my ex and I just got into a fight about the Bible vs. same-sex marriages .
His argument [ like many ]: it's against the bible! God doesn't want a man with a man or a woman with a woman . Period! it's nasty . it's wrong . they're going to hell [ yadda yadda yadda ] .
My argument : Many people build their case against homosexuality almost entirely on the Bible. These people value Scripture, and are serious about using it as guidance in their lives...unfortunately, many of them have never really studied what the Bible does and doesn't say about homosexuality .
[ ex. Jesus says nothing about same-sex behavior, the Jewish prophets are silent about homosexuality, and only six or seven of the Bible's one million verses refer to same-sex behavior in any way and NONE of these verses refer to homosexual orientation as it's understood in present day . sorry babe..your argument doesn't stand up with me . ]
Most people who are positive that they know what the Bible says about homosexuality don't even know where the verses that reference same-sex behavior can be found . They haven't read them or even cared enough to study them . They don't know the original meanings of the words in Hebrew or Greek and they haven't tried to understand the historical context in which those words were written . Yet the assumption that the Bible condemns homosexuality is passed down from generation to generation with very little personal study or research .
The apostle Paul says, "Test all things and hold fast to that which is good."
Even when we believe the Scriptures are "infallible" . it's dangerous to think that our understanding of every biblical text is also without error . We are human kids . We are fallible ! I'm sure our interpretations can be as well .
Leviticus 18:6 : "You shall not lie with a male as one lies with a female. It is an abomination." A similar verse occurs two chapters later, in Leviticus 20:13: "A man who sleeps with another man is an abomination and should be executed." sorry kiddos, this has nothing to do with sex. Leviticus is a holiness code written 3,000 years ago [ come on biblical heritage course: CAU Fall 2008!! ] . This code includes many outdated sexual laws [ ex. Leviticus 18:19: The Bible forbids a married couple from having sexual intercourse during a woman's period. If they disobey, both shall be executed ]. It also includes prohibitions against round haircuts, tattoos, working on the Sabbath, wearing garments of mixed fabrics, eating pork or shellfish, getting your fortune told, and even playing with the skin of a pig.
[ There goes football ! sorry Superbowl fans ! ]
j/k the code above was written for priests only, and its primary intent was to set the priests of Israel over and against priests of other cultures .
It's 2010 people . grow up . God created his children in his image and part of that includes loving one another as he loves us . Thank you for helping me understand this Rev. Mel White !
now to my ex, I'm glad we had this talk . showed me how closed minded you really are =P
THE SAINTS WON!! WHOOO HOOOO! OH YEA O YEA!! [ 31 -17 ] [dancing on my bed as I type..weird huh lol ] OK back to normal . so my favorite NFL team DUSTED the Colts last night and did me proud . Coltson had me a little worried at the beginning but he pulled it together with an on side kick! any who, I am sooooo happy today ! I have a shoot set up with EFTH Photography and I'm talking to a photographer from Tearsheets about doing another shoot soon after .
I am kind of new to being in front of the camera but I'm up to learn a thing or too!
Now to just get the look together [ sounds like a job for the best stylist I know: Bestie Bobbie **cheesy hero music** ] . Hopefully she won't mind me dipping into that awesome wardrobe of hers! Can today get any better?
About to get dressed to go see my dad in the nursing home...I miss him A LOT . I might even stop by my brothers house [ regardless of what was said...he's family and I'd never cut him out of my life ]. hmmm craving firehouse at the moment. later lovers !
p.s I love when he texts me Good Morning Gorgeous . Just does something for my ego lol ;D
11:25 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNT CRYS! lol anywho I saw my daddy today ! he was so happy to see me, I couldn't help but smile =] I saw Jas and Jaylen who is now walking [ he's getting too old lol ] and grabbed a few things from wally world . not a bad ending to my day . =D
3:48 AM it's early as the dickens and I can't seem to fall asleep [ ex-hubby/fiance/love person has been knocked out going on two hours ] . literally still holding the phone...feels like old times . simulating conversation [ minds out the gutter please ], "I love you"s exchanged and the whole kiss me through the phone crap right before we drift off to happy dreams about each other... [ sorry he woke up looking for me ] God I love this man and I'd do anything for him... but I don't know rather to make it work or just avoid the drama ?? I'm 20 and he's going on 23 soon ...aren't we too young to be talking about marriage y fighting like old married people ?? [ chest pain tells me it's time to drink this water and call it a night ] later lovers .
11:51 AM no need to even answer that question, the [ misanthrope ] Mr. Hyde is back . situation surmise:
I was invited to a cook out weeks ago . Went, felt out of place [ idk too much for me ] but stayed and thanked everyone for the invitation . I have been again invited over for a super bowl party but I told them I was having something at my house but thanks . I told my ex "the truth" . I will not be in attendance because I felt uncomfortable last time [ cursing, drinking, fighting etc ] . He snaps saying of all things, "what you too good for them?!"
now I'm bouje, racist, and dumb for feeling uncomfortable in an environment I've never been around . "I hate when you act like that Jenelle"... like what, he's an idiot . [ rant over ]
Super Bowl XLIV (2010): Sunday Feb 7th, 6:25PM ET on CBS - The New Orleans Saints and Indianapolis Colts will go head to head at the Sun Life Stadium in Miami Gardens, Florida !
YOU READY TO WATCH THE SAINTS DUST THE COLTS! I can not wait to see this game...the two teams I went the hardest for all season made it to the Superbowl ! [ I should have made a bet..DAMN lol ]
Still hella [word still makes me laugh lol] jealous of Cortez! oh well, I'll see him when he heads back to New Orleans after the game... definitely bucking what ever Superbowl gear he has lol [ j/k he's supposed to be getting me a pink Saints jersey ]
3:33 PM sooo this fat girl was trying to facebook fight me LMBO . guess what it was over..[ as I die laughing with my mom ] . HER EX who is just my friend lol . You guys know I would own up to it if I had really messed with her boyfriend [ correction ex ]...because that's just not right at all...but I didn't . I've been so busy with my man and my situations...how could I have time to form a whole new relationship ? but no people...his ex Janeese turned into a facebook gangster . " is that the same girl that wrote you before ? " -bobbie
why yes it is... ladies If you ignore everything else I ever say..NEVER EVER go after the girl in the situation . Ultimately..your relationship is between you and your man..not his friend that you're worried about because of your own insecurities ! Let's be big girls now, dust the dirt off your knees, and smile <3 . lol so high school right ?4:09 PM he keeps apologizing and saying how he has never wanted to fight a girl so bad [ I don't condone violence kids..unless they asked for it lol j/k ] . through all of this..I know he still loves loco mama [ Janeese aka facebook gangster has an official blog name ] and I hope he's happy whatever he decides to do . needless to say...I told him it might be a bad idea for me to fly there anytime soon . I don't want to put the hero in hero syndrome . any who, getting ready to hit my friends super bowl party [ D. Mas ] he wants me to whip up this dip I made for the last fight party we had at his house . later lovers .
OK so those who know me and know me well have heard me sending Alja 'Jesse Jane' Jackson sound waves through out the world via free mixtape [ CONTRABRAND is crack ] ! I told you then and I'll say it now, she WILL be the NEXT BIG THING [ and I'm not just saying this because she's from my city **cough*DUVAL*cough**...or that we went to the same highschool..ok maybe a little lol wolf pack ! ], she has raw talent that is about to take the industry by tsunami !
How about this, judge for yourself...
Check this out: [ performing wit my girls y my fav song, Purrtiest Girl ]
like that huh ? ...see I told you kids!
Special shouts to her dance counterpart Japan [ YES, from the much anticipated www.Tokyoandjapan.com...coming soon!] Not only is he a BISH dancer, but also a kick ass model and Makeup artist extraordinaire ! p.s if you are in the ATL area and need your hair or makeup done ...these are THE go to guys [ TokyoandJapan@gmail.com ]
[ awwww seems like just yesterday I was getting my hair done by Tokyo for my pageant! ];D
soooo I spoke to most of my "sisters" today [ such joy I get from having a large extended fam base ] . I saw Ms. Tonya in the hospital...and she still managed to crack a few smiles through the pain . Couldn't make it out to dad [ tried to call but the line was busy..he probably left the phone off the hook again ]...making it a point to see him tomorrow . I am so Thankful for all the people in my life...as a matter of fact...
Dear E. Boogie [ Evan ],
Thanks for being an awesome friend and sister for the last two years . Who would have ever thought I'd be besties with a Pasadena Barbie from Sunny California lol ? any who, I really do thank God for you . For every road block that you've been there for ( with a nice big bottle, great advice and that great "man, phuket it attitude lol ), I say thank you . I love you caligirl .
p.s I miss you too Ily y meekyboo . road trip must be planned .